fairly tale of mine :)

home sweet home <3 

staying in KL is really toturing. 

and im finally back.

everything i do there. nothing goes right.

two weeks of toturing.

its like two months being there.

i do not know why is really so stressful being there. 

if i study, they will say * you really study ar? or only act in front of us o?*

if i wash plate, they will say *you can wash plate properly or not? make here so wait ki. and see see the carpet you step on become not nice liao.*

if i sit down watch tv quietly, they will say * keep on watch movie one. no need study ar?* or maybe * i watch this part 4 TIMES already*

if i online also scold, sms also scold. 

i have to reduce my sms. i really really stress being there.

its only been two weeks. but i cry more than 4 times when i take bath.

then.. my present from my friend. each of the time, they will say *WAH BOYFRIEND GIVE ONE AR?*

EVERYTHING BOYFRIEND! i really got no boyfriend OKAY?!

how many time do i need to say?

=/ i really so stress. because of you people i dont even dare to accept people now. 

do you people know how stress am i?

you people really want force me till i crazy is it?

you tot i dont want go Uni is it?

I WANT! and I DID MY BEST.

but who trust me?

no one.

not even my mum.

she always tot i no study.

who will believe that i did study?

no one. gosh.. i'm really tired.

how i wish someone will take me by the hand and tell me that you would take me to anywhere i want.

or maybe let me cry hardly on their shoulder.

i'm so tired. =/

who could actually understand how i felt.

that day i even cry in front of my mother in the public.

i really cant help to cry already.

i dont care how people look at me. i just wanna cry. =/

tot reach home, i can feel better.

yea. a little bit of better.

but still.

i feel the pressure.

of CLEANING the house =/

before i leave kch, i purposely clean the house. 

then when i come back. EVERYTHING TURNS TO ORIGINAL

its like. WTH!!!!!!

I REALLY TIRED ALREADY OKAY?! WHAT DO YOU PEOPLE WANT FROM ME?!!!!!

cant you people just let me free?

just a moment.

=/ i just need some rest. thats all.